ACERCA DE MÍ / ABOUT ME

Maybe because I’ve felt lost since I can remember it is that I used to find solace in the observations of Ortega y Gasset, that stated that “men of clear minds” recognize how troublesome is the world, and by doing so, they acknowledge that they feel lost. But in a note of hope, he also said that that who recognizes that is lost, has begun to find himself.

And well, however witty and convincing, that is the discourse of the mind, which is for all transcendental purposes always either lost or confused.

Confusion and trouble might be the currency of the mind and of the world, but not of the heart. And I’d like to think that I am learning and sharing about this entirely new frame of being.

One day not far away in time, I swore to myself and I wrote that promise down, that I would write down and share all that I believed and knew to be true.

Some of the visions and portraits that I wrote on The Story have been with me for longer that I can remember. 15 or 20 years perhaps. Even though when they emerged, I could not understand them, I kept them close or wrote them down envisioning and wishing that one day they could serve some purpose and explain to me something about me.

There are couple of songs that came to me 14 or so years ago. The rest came in clusters when I promised to myself that I was committed to solve this puzzle. The picture that I have assembled demands to be portrayed, because… that is the other part of the deal. And it is pretty scary for me because I have always tried to remain hidden. I know for sure that it is my duty to come to light. And it is the duty for all of us.

I swore to myself that I would do this project and share it because I had the promise that at the other side of it, I would find freedom. A freedom that alas must be regained and maintained everyday. I happen to understand freedom as the act of knowing oneself and being oneself in the most complete, honest and pristine way. That is as someone before me said, “The Courage to be”. 

I am not a singer nor a writer, songwriter, artist or anything of that sort. I always say in a dramatic tone that I can barely read or write (And it is true). That is why I despite my “my clear mind” I’ve been lost in this troublesome world for so long.

So even though I remain “lost”, this is the brightest, most sincere and well intentioned light that I can shine and share with whoever comes in touch with this work that I received to share.

I like to read the Prayer of Saint Francis of Assisi, and when he says, “Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,” I feel like adding, “and of your beauty,” because I still believe that beauty will save the world.

C’est moi